Recently I've been on this kick of wondering why certain people come into your life at a certain time and why some become closer than others, some only stay for a little while, and some you develop strong feelings for. And what about those people who you had feelings for, things went sour so you went your own ways, and now you don't even feel nearly half of what you did for them? It's really strange to me.
It's funny how infatuation works and how you can involve yourself in someone's life just the same as they can do to you. You spend a lot of time together and you start to really enjoy that other person's company. But what if one person gets bored or feels the relationship become stale? What if one person decides to fulfill their life dreams and needs to move on to accomplish them? A lot of people have a hard time letting go a little and deciding that what's best for them is what's best for you. There is a reason this happens and people need to open up to the possibilities of why.
I guess I'm guilty of this as well, always blaming myself for the other person being unhappy or asking myself over and over again what I did wrong. Everyone is guilty of this at one time or another in their lives because we all get attached. No matter how much we want to deny that our partners moving on or making their lives better doesn't bother us one bit.. it does. Some people can hide those feelings pretty well. I myself have gotten better at letting things go and not letting this hurt as much as it used to. I still feel vulnerable at times because I've put everything on the line that I've got and within an instant it could be shut down. I could be turned back to ice cold and back to where I started. It's really hard for me to open up so much to let someone see my soft side and for the trust to begin to build in a relationship. But you know what? Life is too short to not trust people you fall for and people you want to depend on. If you never get hurt, you'll never get out alive.
When you get older and really care for someone, you don't pick at the tiny details to force them to change to what your dream partner may be. Infatuation starts to trail off and you really know what you look for in someone to love and someone to love you back. You want to be happy pleasing them and taking caring of them. You feel like they could almost be family. You love them for who they are and how they make you feel. When you find that one person that you can trust and confide it, you don't have to feel like empty or neglected or wrong-doing for having feelings for them whatsoever. Maybe a feeling or two here and there because you do care but that person is never judging of you. If you have that open and honest relationship, then they shouldn't have to even think about judging. When someone appreciates you, it really makes the world a different place.
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Mondays are hands down my least favorite days. Ughh.
Until the next thought-
xoxo,
Amdawg
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