I am always wondering what other people are doing at the exact second that I'm doing something else. Like people in Michigan or someone in Austrailia. Not sure why but I always think they're doing something way cooler than me. And that's when I remember, 'Oh yeah they probably are because I'm stuck in a cubical, behind a desk, freezing.'

Things are pretty alright I guess, just need to find something that better suits my time. I really want to start looking for jobs to do with music but this economy is unraveling faster than I've ever seen and I can't afford to just get up and go. Actually, I probably could because I always like change. I like new things in my life and when they get old, I move on and find something else to take up that space. I feel like I'm not learning enough at my job anymore because people just assume I know how to do things. And then, when I give my imput, it's like talking to a wall.

On a more positive note, I spent $12 on a Wholefoods Salad yesterday! Most expensive lunch in awhile.

Need to get back in the gym routine for sure. I also think I need to talk to a therapist about my constant weight issue (which I'm starting to believe is a serious problem). I know I'll never be skinny but lately I never feel good about how I look. Maybe I just need a tan and I'll start to feel better. New goal- Get to the beach before the end of summer. I'm heading to Sea Isle next weekend so let's hope this happens :thumb up:

Also I've been having a problem with deciding what I want to eat which I'm sure isn't good for my diet. I'm thinking about going to see a nutritionist to get in some kind of eating habit. I'm sure that would help me be a little more positive as well.

Been thinking about moving out again. I'm tired of wasting two hours of each day just driving to and from work. It's really gotten old and I feel like if I lived somewhere closer that I would even feel better about the work environment overall. I guess saving more money would help so as soon as December comes around, I'll be better off. My LASIK surgery will have been paid off and I can start to look for something convenient.

So much for making sense, this post is utterly random but it's how my brain is working today..


Until the next thought-
Amdawg, xoxo